It has been a long time.

I haven't written anything in a while, so I figured that I would update. This Thursday, April 9, 2009, I am getting married. Nick is the love of my life and I can't wait to to start a life with him. A lot of people say that we are moving too fast and such, but I feel, that if you love someone and know that they are the one, then why wait? Why waste time?

I am currently 17 weeks pregnant! I feel like it's moving soo fast now. I will find out soon what I am having, but I feel like it's a boy. Although, I will be happy with whatever.

Life is good and for the first time in such in a long long time that I am really truely happy.

Ah, everything is good.

Sunday Secret.

I am so happy to finally say. Someone FOUND me.
&&I found him.

American Idol Auditions.

Ahhh, a new year, which means AMERICAN IDOL. Although I really hate the actual voting and eliminating part of it. I Absolutely love the auditions, especially the bad ones. Haha, I really like when they go on there and actually THINK they are really good, I mean they may be the best in their tiny podunk little town, but for American Idol. They SUCK.

A new Rock of Love started and these bitches just keep getting trashier and trashier. I can't take it. They should audition for the role of Trailer Park Barbie. Seriously. But I guess sex sells and I can almost bet those bitches have had a lot of gross STD infested sex. You know, because people ALWAYS take body shots out of your pussy.

My new Obession in Reality TV, which is actually pretty decent, is Celebrity Rehab and Sober House. I love anything with Dr. Drew. He handles himself so well and his TV shows aren't trashy hardly at all. I love the way it depicts the dark side of the beautiful people. Rehab is something the Celebs don't want to admit to, but these Celebs don't care, and to me, that's pretty decent. I can't wait for CR3, if there will even be one, but I can almost guess there will be one.

I love Trashy Reality TV.

Ahhh updates....since I haven't been on in awhile.

I am currently 5 weeks and 5 days pregnant.

I am due September 14, 2009.

I have my first Dr's appointment on Monday the 19th.

Nick and I are hopefully moving out into our own place next month. We are waiting for his W2 to come in the mail so he can do his taxes. Will need to get a few things for our new place, furniture wise. I finally get to decorate the kids room. And I am really happy about that.

I want it to warm up.=[[

BFP.....maybe.

That's definately two lines! I'm testing
again in the morning. If I am pregnant
I would be due September 14, 2009..
Yay! Baby number 2 on it's way.

Longgggg

So Conflicted.
David's [Kai's dad] mom called me about four days ago and asked to see Kaida and give her a few presents. Now the last time she saw her was on her birthday onJune 14th. I know that they have had some issues going on with his parents house being forelcosed on and such and I really don't have a problem with Diane [David's Mom] seeing Kai, but I feel Kai doesn't really remember her, and I think Kai would feel a bit uncomfortable being around them by herself, and I as a mother would feel like a bad mom for just giving my child to somone she barely knows. I have yet to call her back and give her an answer and what I want to do because I don't know how she would feel if I suggested us meeting up for Lunch or Dinner or meeting at a neutral location so they can visit with Kai and she can get to know them, and I want to do that for awhile because I do want them to be in her life because Diane has been there for me when I needed her if she could help which I do appreciate, but I feel like it's barely an effort on her part. MY grandma does SO MUCH for Kai and I feel like Diane could be doing more
and she doesn't.

PLUS I have to somehow tell her that I DO NOT want David around my daughter at all right now because he has not seen her since April of 2008, I know it would be easy for her to hear that, but David is a shitty father and she needs to realize he can't consider himself a dad and not want to deal with the responsibilities that come with it. Kai has a dad and that is Nick [my boyfriend now] and she recognizes him as the man who is always around and who will always be around and I know that David and his mom will not like to hear that news and I just don't know what to tell them.

I am really conflicted about this because I feel like I am not being fair to David and his mom by putting so many restrictions on THEIR family, but she is MY child and it should be up to me about who sees my child and how they see her and when they want to see her, but I don't feel like they would see it that way.

Shopping...Baby Dancing...Rockband

Wow, busy weekend for us and it's only Thursday!
Nick and I finished Kai's TOY Christmas shopping,
we got her a few things for Nick's apartment until
we get our own place. I still want and need to get
her some clothing items. Nick and I still need to
go shopping for a few more people in his family,
and my sister and of course me heh. He is too good.
Ah I'm FERTILE! So Nick and I are trying like
crazy to make us a baby. Hopefully we get it right
on the first try but we will see. Kaida will be at
least 27+ months old when the little one arrives
so we think it's a good age. UGHGHGHG Toys R US
has Rockband on sale for practically 100 dollars and
Nick is buying it. So now I have to learn how to play.
Well that's it for now. BYESSSSSS

Things a new.

So Nick and I are looking for places to move and we found this HOUSE for 515 a month, 2 bedroom, basement, garage, 2 bath. It looks so nice and everything. Hopefully they can work with us on making the deposit and rent. Hopefully we can move in by February 1st.
Income tax is coming up and I'm going to try and pay off some if not all, of my debt I have. My credit score is terrible 569, ugh. I think Nick's is good, maybe like a 600. Which helps us a little. We are starting to save money out of everyone of his paychecks so we have emergency money for whatever we would need. I told him saving is important if we want a baby and are trying. God if we got that house I would be so happy.
Kaida is EIGHTEEN MONTHS already. Today she had her checkup and she got three shots. The Dr. told me she is a healthy height and weight which is good, but she has fluid in her ears [like always] and she didn't feel like she needed any medicine. I wonder if she will need tubes in her ears. Ugh.
Ah Christmas is so close. Nick and I are finishing our shopping on Friday and I'm really happy about it. I can't wait for Christmas. It's going to be such a good one. Kaida is going to get so much stuff. =]]] Well enough for now.

Merry Christmas to me.=]]

Nickolas just bought me a To Write Love On Her Arms T-shirt
Nightmare before Christmas Locket
and he got Kai a Yo Gabba Gabba Brobee Hoodie.
I love Him. He is so good to us.=]]
<3

Weekend in review.

So this weekend was good.
Last night Nick took off work because he was sick.
Kai and I are sick too.
For the most part we just layed around all day just trying to rest.
Last night I was looking at baby stuff.
I decided to get all the Nursery stuff and Kai's room decor
from Ikea. Their stuff is cute and way cheap for Nick and I's
budget. So the whole room for both babies will only 413.00.
Nick also find out the results of his Nut Ultrasound, hopefully
he doesn't have Cancer or anything like that.

Kaida's Bed Sets.



The new baby's bed sets


They are the Barnslig patterns made by Eva Lundgreen.
And they are sooo cute but really cheap.

Snow.

It snowed ALL day!
I wanted Kai to play in it, but she has a cough and
I didn't want to make it worse.
St. Nick came last night and Kai got Make-up and
got it everywhere, heh, oh well.
She also got 2 DVDs and a little babydoll.
I have to start wrapping presents, Christmas
is in nineteen days!!!
Oh, and this month the boy and I are TTC=]